A Very Short Update

I haven’t been here in a very long time.  As I explained at one time, I’m a writer by profession, but I don’t want to be known as a recovering alcoholic writer…that seems a bit too contrived, and it is only a small part of who I am.

But I know it is important for many recovering alcoholics to hear good news occasionally as they walk their path, so I just dropped by today to tell you that tomorrow is ten-and-a-half years of continual sobriety and happiness.

If I can do it then you can too, because I was pretty much hopeless in 2006.

If you would like to say in touch, I’m found much more often on my writing blog at https://artistrywithwords.com/ or on my urban farming blog at



loving life on a hikeI rarely write in this blog anymore, but I saw I had three new followers so decided I should make an appearance.

On November 16th I celebrated nine years of sobriety.

Life is good!

I have completely changed my life in nine years. I have completely changed my lifestyle in nine years, and I’ve completely changed friends and relationships.  Only family remains from those tumultuous years when ego ran rampant and I was determined to kill myself slowly with my best friend clutched in my hand.

I am my message of hope for all of you. I am a success story, a living symbol that life can be great without alcohol or drugs.

Blessings to you all!


I haven’t written on this blog for quite some time, so I thought I’d take a break from my regular blog and give you an update on my sobriety.

November 16th, my 8th sobriety anniversary, came and went without much fanfare, and that’s exactly how I wanted it.  I have reached the point in my sobriety where milestones mean very little to me.  Sobriety is just a way of life now.  Each day is a celebration when you aren’t obsessing over getting drunk, so November 16th looked pretty much the same as every other day.

For those of you who are still struggling with addiction, I offer you hope.  I know you’ve heard others say this, but it is true: if I can do it then anyone can.  I was hopeless eight years ago, and I was close to achieving my goal of drinking myself to death.

Today I love life.  That may seem a bit odd for those of you craving a drink, but it’s the truth as I know it.

Will I drink in the future? I have no idea.  I don’t whistle in the wind hoping to keep the devil away, and I know much better than to make promises.  All I can say with certainty is that I won’t drink today, and I’ll take on tomorrow when it gets here.

I can tell you that I no longer obsess over alcohol.  In fact, it rarely even enters my mind and I mean rarely.  I go about my day without thoughts of drinking and that, in itself, is a miracle.

As always, if you need support and someone to talk with, you know how to reach me.

Pax Vobiscum


wash d.c.It is time for this blog to experience a natural death. I have enjoyed telling my story about alcoholism, and helping those who have needed it.  I have met some incredible people and I feel some good has been accomplished by this blog.

But it is time to move on.  You see, alcoholism is just a small part of who I am, and I have been ignoring the other parts of me that are so important.  I have a mission to reach thousands of people with a message of empowerment and hope, so I need to say goodbye to this blog.

I will be starting two new blogs that hopefully will help me to focus on other aspects of life that are important to me.

Thank you for following along, and if you should ever need to contact me about alcoholism you are encouraged to reach out via email at holland1145@yahoo.com.

Thank you for your friendship and I wish you all a life filled with sobriety and happiness.

wash d.c.I lost another friend today to alcoholism.  Quite frankly I’m pissed off, as I always am each and every time this disease claims another victim.

The numbers are staggering, but they really are just numbers until it hits close to home and you realize that another human being that you knew is now gone.

I’ll make this short and sweet.  You can either choose to live or choose to die. No power on earth can make that choice for you.

Today I choose to live.

Life Is Good

loving life on a hikeOne of my earliest mentors in AA was a man by the name of Little Joe.  When I first came into AA, Little Joe already had twenty-eight years of sobriety.  When he died several years ago he had forty-five sober years.

He was a wonderful man who always smiled and always had time to come over and shake my hand and tell me that life is good.

Life is good!  It was like a mantra to him, and he firmly believed it.

Anyway, he was a simple man with a simple philosophy.  He said if you wanted to stay sober it might be a good idea to put the plug in the jug and not drink.


thumbnailCAE2TTDQAre you thinking about drinking?

Are you thinking that maybe just one little drink won’t hurt?

Are you thinking that this time you can control those cravings and stop after a couple?

Are you thinking that maybe if you switch to just beer it will make a difference?

Are you thinking that this time you will be able to drink like everyone else?

Are you thinking that maybe it just wasn’t as bad as you imagined it was?

Are you thinking that you just need a little more willpower and everything will be alright?

If you are thinking any of those things, then you are thinking way too much.

Welcome to the perpetual illusion of all alcoholics….it will be different this time!  Unfortunately, if you are an alcoholic, it will never be different.  The plain and simple truth is that you will never be able to drink normally again.  Those days are gone if in fact they ever existed.  You do not magically regain control of your drinking.  The disease has advanced too far and you are on a one-way street headed for more heartache, more loss and more destruction.

Bleak picture? It was meant to be. J