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wash d.c.I lost another friend today to alcoholism.  Quite frankly I’m pissed off, as I always am each and every time this disease claims another victim.

The numbers are staggering, but they really are just numbers until it hits close to home and you realize that another human being that you knew is now gone.

I’ll make this short and sweet.  You can either choose to live or choose to die. No power on earth can make that choice for you.

Today I choose to live.

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thumbnailCAE2TTDQAre you thinking about drinking?

Are you thinking that maybe just one little drink won’t hurt?

Are you thinking that this time you can control those cravings and stop after a couple?

Are you thinking that maybe if you switch to just beer it will make a difference?

Are you thinking that this time you will be able to drink like everyone else?

Are you thinking that maybe it just wasn’t as bad as you imagined it was?

Are you thinking that you just need a little more willpower and everything will be alright?

If you are thinking any of those things, then you are thinking way too much.

Welcome to the perpetual illusion of all alcoholics….it will be different this time!  Unfortunately, if you are an alcoholic, it will never be different.  The plain and simple truth is that you will never be able to drink normally again.  Those days are gone if in fact they ever existed.  You do not magically regain control of your drinking.  The disease has advanced too far and you are on a one-way street headed for more heartache, more loss and more destruction.

Bleak picture? It was meant to be. J

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much younger daysOh what a tangled web we weave.

Hang around AA long enough and you will have people giving you suggestions whether you asked for them or not. J  It’s only natural I guess.  There is a lot of wisdom in the halls of AA, and there are a lot of people who want to help.  There are also a lot of egos there and those egos are convinced that they know better than anyone else how to stay sober.  Again, it’s only natural.

One thing you will hear over and over again is that during early sobriety you should avoid getting involved with the opposite sex in a relationship.  If you think about it you will see the wisdom in that suggestion.

During early sobriety the recovering alcoholic is like one large exposed nerve.  There is a blizzard of emotions and feelings as the sleeping giant is awakened and life bombards them from all sides.  Early sobriety means insecurity and insecurity means looking for someone to provide security for us….and sooner or later our thoughts turn to the opposite sex for that security.

Avoid it at all costs.  Anyone standing on the wobbly legs of sobriety is not ready emotionally for the trials and tribulations of a relationship.  It is better to concentrate on your sobriety until you are strong enough to stand on your own.  Get to know yourself before trying to get to know someone else.  In the long run you will end up stronger and more capable of handling the dynamics of a relationship with another human being.

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miscellaneous....and steph 003I don’t remember the last time I was drunk on Easter.  That realization hit me yesterday as we were enjoying family and life.

We saw all five of our kids yesterday and people came and went.  No big meal was served.  Everyone just grabbed something from the fridge, and we played in the sunshine and built our chicken coop.

None of the joys I now experience would be possible if I was still drinking.  None of them.

I am incredibly blessed to be living a life of sobriety.  I am surrounded by loving people who fill my life with joy.  Life is good sober and it can be for you as well.  All you have to do is want it badly enough.

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January 28 2012 161Easter weekend, as good a time to drink as any other!

Seriously, are you having family over for the holidays?  Will there be drinking?  Let me tell you how it is in our household.

Everyone knows I am an alcoholic, so there is no drinking in our household.  I have never told our family not to.  They have chosen not to out of respect to me.  We gather together here and have sparkling cider or some other juice.

Would it upset me to be around booze?  After six years of sobriety probably not, but why would I risk it?  Why would I hang out in slippery places and be around my biggest temptation when there is no reason to do so? Staying sober is much too important to me, and I have no desire to tempt fate.  My health and happiness is much too important to my family, so why would they tempt fate?

I have listened to people debate whether families of alcoholics should drink at family gatherings.  My opinion is that they shouldn’t out of respect for the alcoholic and the struggle the alcoholic goes through.  What possible reason could you have for drinking if you know someone in the room is trying to stop from drinking, and their very health and well-being are at stake?

Just one man’s opinion.

Have a great Easter weekend!

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wash d.c.Yesterday we talked a little about the reactions we may meet once we have found sobriety.  Let’s talk a bit more about that.

Some of us…many of us…drank for decades.  The damage and pain we caused during that time was, for many of us, enormous.  Simply because we get sober does not mean that damage goes away.  Hearts were broken…trust was shattered…and that kind of damage takes a long time to heal and repair.

Our job as recovering alcoholics is to make amends and then show, through our daily actions, that we are changed people.  The amends we make may not be accepted.  We might make very sincere apologies only to have the injured party say they do not accept our apology.  So be it!  We can do no more.  We must make the amends and then move forward.  We cannot change the past but we can change our future.

Live each day with compassion, empathy and love.  Over time people will once again give you their trust and acceptance, but it is a long journey and one we must commit to.

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much younger daysFor some alcoholics, the long struggle has ended.  By whatever means, whether it be by treatment or AA or hypnosis, they have found sobriety and now they are starting a sober life.

Life is good again and they are picking up the pieces of their shattered lives and embracing this living thing once again.  They start interacting with people again and that can be a sticky wicket.

Most of us have caused some damage during our drinking careers.  We may have lied to others.  We may have cheated and stolen money, and we have most certainly broken trust that others had in us.

Simply because we are now sober does not mean that there isn’t damage control to be done.  We have to earn back the trust that we lost while drinking.  Some people will instantly embrace us and forgive.  Speaking for myself, I have had people who simply will not forgive me and that is understandable.  Others have accepted me with open arms and now look at me with respect and admiration.

Remember as you begin your sober lives that it is your job to ask forgiveness and then start walking your talk.  Respect must be earned.  It is not given freely, especially to those of us who have shattered that respect while we were drinking.

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